Life
As I was scrolling through Facebook the other day, I saw a post from Mindy Kahling that seemed to be directed at me. She posted pictures of herself looking amazing in bikinis and wrote, "IDK who needs to hear this but… WEAR A BIKINI IF YOU WANT TO WEAR A BIKINI. You don’t have to be a size 0. Have a great summer."
She was talking about me. I needed to hear that when I was staring at my bikini-clad body in my bathroom mirror, wondering if my mom bod was bikini ready. While I consider myself to be a confident person, generally, my body in a bikini is an exception. Being in a 2-piece makes me feel like that anxious, insecure teenager all over again; the one hiding under an over-sized t-shirt, deathly afraid of what people might say or think.
I've struggled with body issues since I was a child, and am in active recovery from an eating disorder, so it’s been hard to see my body change as the result of pregnancy, labor, delivery, and, you know, just time. But after nearly 41 years on the planet, and three pregnancies, my body will never be a size 0 again, my breasts will never be the same size, and my belly and thighs will never be scar- and stretch mark-free.
But, you guys: it’s hot AF outside. And my kids want to hit the pool! So, honestly, I’ll be damned if I’m going to let societal ideals about what a so-called bikini body should look like prevent me from wearing a cute 2-piece this summer. It hasn't been easy to get to this place, especially since I'm having to unlearn a lot of problematic and downright destructive messaging about what constitutes a "bikini body" and what is "attractive," but these days you can absolutely find me lounging around my backyard in a bikini.
My body is ready for that 2-piece, and so is yours, no matter what other people might think or say about it. But if you're not convinced just yet, here are a few signs your mom bod is ready to rock that bikini:
It's Warm Outside
Everyone deserves to feel comfortable. Full stop. So if it's hot, wear that bikini if it helps you deal with the summer heat! Being a size 0 is not a prerequisite for staying cool.
You Love Your Mom Bod...
The messaging about "mom bods" is problematic at best. We're supposed to "bounce back" after having kids and love every part of our postpartum bodies. We're supposed to hide the physical evidence that we experienced pregnancy and wear our stretch marks with pride.
But I am proud of what my body can do. I’ve grown humans, fed them, held them, and loved them. I’ve run marathons and run through the sprinkler with my kids. I’ve battled chronic disease and skin cancer. I’m a warrior, and if this warrior wants to wear a bikini she's going to.
... Or You Have Some Mixed Feelings About It
At the same time, I don't love every single part of my so-called "mom bod." I think my breasts are too small and lop-sided, I have stretch marks, cellulite, and sagging skin. Two years after my youngest was born, I still haven't lost my "baby weight."
But I've realized that I don't have to completely love every single aspect of my body in order to wear a bikini. And neither do you. How we feel about our bodies is often complicated and, at least in my case, a work-in-progress. And that is OK! So if you aren't at "OMG I AM A GODDESS" level yet, hey, that's fine! You can wear that bikini anyway.
You Have SPF
My friends, I would be remiss if I didn't remind you to wear SPF every single day, especially when wearing a bikini and exposing areas of your body that don't regularly see the sun. Not only will it prevent sunburns and pre-mature aging, but it might just save your life.
You've Realized That All Bodies Are "Bikini Bodies"
Are you sensing a pattern, yet?
Every body is a so-called "bikini body." If you want to be, you are bikini ready. You don't have to be a certain size, weigh a certain amount, look a certain way, or reach any other arbitrary and socially contrived criteria in order to wear a 2-piece... or anything else, for that matter.
Enjoy the summer! Enjoy your kids enjoying the summer! And enjoy the body that made it all possible.
If you or someone you know has an eating disorder and needs help, call the National Eating Disorders Association helpline at 1-800-931-2237, text 741741, or chat online with a Helpline volunteer here.