My 8-Year-Old Became The Ruler Of His Own Imaginary World This Year

My son's way of coping with the pandemic: creating a made-up country, where things are a little more fair.

by Brooke Hauser
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Our Pandemic Year

In a stretch of sea between Japan and Australia is a small island known as Hoilemondei. It is a fair nation, in more ways than one: It is beautiful, with lush jungles, verdant pine forests, sweeping tundras, and untouched beaches; and also it is just, a place where both humans and animals are treated equally and with respect. Most people have never heard of Hoilemondei, but I am deeply familiar with its history, customs, and language. And I know its ruler well — he is my 8-year-old son, Marlow, who founded the country nearly a year ago, just days after COVID-19 shut down schools.

Depending on his mood, the leader of Hoilemondei is a noble emperor, a power-hogging president, a limit-pushing prime minister, a cranky dictator, or a bored king. His style of governance follows his mood, and his “people” — myself; my husband, Addie; and our 4-year-old daughter, Sydney — are sometimes subject to the vicissitudes of his fortune or frustration. And there has been a lot of frustration.

Remote learning has been a bust for us: Sitting down at the computer for hours of Zoom classes just isn’t working for the king of Hoilemondei, who has trouble being still for longer than a few minutes at a time. He’d rather be baking ginger scones from random ingredients rummaged from the pantry, constructing a grappling hook out of twigs, reading the periodic table, or trying to enforce a morning schedule for his little sister even as he ignores his own. Sample: “Wake up, eat waffel, get dressed, brush teeth, bow to hoilemondei, leave for school.”

In recent months, we have been transitioning back to in-person school in our district (in Massachusetts, not Hoilemondei), and Marlow is making good progress. Still, he reminds us daily, it’s not fair — it’s not fair that he has to go to school when other kids get to stay home. It’s not fair that he has to sit in class when his sister goes to an outdoor daycare where there’s a coop full of chickens, not to mention a cat and a rabbit named Knuffle Bunny. And while he’s at it, it’s not fair that a year ago in second grade Ms. N’s class got candy on holidays and Ms. B’s didn’t.

There is no denying that COVID-19 has underscored the unfairness of so many things. So we have stopped denying it.

Marlow’s obsession with what’s fair versus what’s unfair has been a one constant in our chaotic lives since the pandemic struck. And while we don’t treat all of Marlow’s concerns with the gravity that he does (it’s not fair when parents say, “Just deal with it!”), there is no denying that COVID-19 has underscored the unfairness of so many things.

So we have stopped denying it.

It’s not fair that some people live in nice houses when others are houseless, sleeping in tents in the woods or on the steps of city hall. It’s not fair that grownups are so cruel to Earth, when kids are the ones who will have to deal with the ravages of climate change. It’s not fair that some people don’t wear masks outside when the coronavirus is making so many people sick. (Only 17 people have died of COVID-19 in Hoilemondei, compared to over 500,000 in the United States.) It’s not fair that Donald Trump lies and lies and never faces consequences while Black people are punished for the color of their skin, gay people are punished for who they love, and trans people are punished for who they are. It’s not fair when American society looks at all these injustices and says, “Just deal with it.”

My son is dealing with it by creating a country where things are a little more fair. In Hoilemondei, kids go to school 4 ½ days a week, and they study mostly geography and science. Depending on the day of the week, they also participate in different Hoilemondein customs and traditions, such as drinking tea, praying to Buddha or the Shinto spirits, fighting with foam swords, and playing Minecraft. In Hoilemondei, you don’t have to say Black Lives Matter because of course they do. You can choose whether you want to be a boy or a girl or neither because in Hoilemondei, there are no hard rules about gender — you’re just a person. A person who, under the law, is created equal with animals, which are sacred. A common ritual is to take black cats and paint their foreheads with a moon crescent, says the leader of Hoilemondei, and “if they don’t like that, then we give them a bottle of catnip.” A human may choose to marry a cheetah, if the cheetah so desires, according to the Hoilemondein Constitution.

The constitution is a work in progress, but among other provisions, it establishes the following: No person may cut more than 11 trees in their life; no hurting animals for carpets or sofas; no littering; no dog-killing shelters; no bad presidents; no moms and dads making every single rule; no watching Peppa Pig; no pullooting [sic]; no eating bananas near someone who doesn’t like the smell of bananas; and no putting animals in cages. The last time this law against caging animals was violated, the offense led to Hoilemondei’s famous war, the Day of Icelandic Aggression.

The national currency, the suro (which I'm told means dragon), bears the Hoilemondein motto, which roughly translates to “In nature we trust." The country’s nickname is, “the land of nature protection,” and its national flag features a symbol of the Great God of Suro. The people of Hoilemondei don’t actually believe the dragon is real, but they do believe that Earth itself is alive.

Fortunately, there was still a place for me, within reach, where things could be made right: Hoilemondei.

On Jan. 7, I eavesdropped as my son attended his third-grade morning meeting via Zoom. “Have any of you heard about what happened yesterday — Pro-Trump supporters storm Capitol?” he asked the little faces in little boxes on the screen. One boy said someone had been shot before the teacher gently redirected the conversation, and the boy switched to talking about his loose tooth.

Normally on a Thursday morning, I would have been in the newsroom of our local paper, where I was editor-in-chief. But a little more than a week before the riot, I lost my job. My position was eliminated, and I was laid off. Fortunately, there was still a place for me, within reach, where things could be made right: Hoilemondei.

When I got home from the office that day, my Subaru filled with boxes I couldn’t bring myself to unpack, I was greeted by a message, written in Crayola marker and taped to my front door: “Do you accept the job of absolute chief of the Hoilemondei Times?”

I stood there for a few minutes, and then I walked into my house and hugged my son, who hugged me back.

In Hoilemondei, there is a guiding principle that has yet to make it into the constitution but that everyone still must follow. It is the notion that nothing but your own body belongs to you — everything else belongs to the Earth.

For example, if you ask the leader of Hoilemondei “Where did you put my black eyeliner?” because he has been known to use it to draw tribal markings on his face, he will respond, “It doesn’t belong to you,” before explaining that the eyeliner is made from pigments that come from minerals, which come from the Earth, and the only thing that truly belongs to you is yourself. “Go put on your sweater” elicits the same response (“It doesn’t belong to me”) as does “please use your napkin” (“It doesn’t belong to me”) but not “wash your hands” because our hands are part of our bodies, and so they belong to us.

It’s amazing how many things “don’t belong” to Marlow’s little sister, but occasionally he’ll make an exception for himself when talking about my throne (a dining room chair he has repurposed for ruling), my staff (a pole topped with a cardboard cutout of the national dragon symbol), or my signs (ever-proliferating drawings of the same symbol that he hangs around the house and that magically disappear when he goes to his babysitter’s house).

Still, my husband and I have learned to pick our battles, especially during a global pandemic. So we have adapted, and we find ourselves — if sporadically and somewhat ridiculously — saying things like, “Maybe you can finish the Hoilemondein beef that you started” or “go put on the sweater that you’re borrowing from the Earth.” Usually, that does the trick.

A few days after losing my job, it occurred to me: The newspaper never “belonged” to me either. Technically, it belongs to the company that owns it. But in a more spiritual sense — a more Hoilemondein sense, you could say — it belongs to the readers, to all the people who share their stories and voices across its pages and have been doing so for around 235 years.

Fair or not, I am at home a lot more now and able to supervise Marlow’s learning. It feels like a huge win if he sits through a math problem, and yet I know that the real-life lessons of this past year are profound. Our transition back to in-person school has been a difficult one, marked by Pop-Tarts and tears. The Pop-Tarts are Marlow’s reward for completing his morning routine and getting into the car. The tears (sometimes mine) come when we don’t make it that far. Boxes on the checklist are left unchecked some mornings, but we try and try again. Because we have to. Even as I push him, I know that what my son is experiencing is only natural — and normal.

In a sense, we’ve all been living in our own Hoilemondeis, on our own little islands. Some of us have been lucky enough to make utopias; others among us have been stuck in our own private hells. At my house, we have experienced both, depending on the day or even the time of day.

More vaccine is on the way. Like the rest of humankind, the citizens of Hoilemondei will re-enter society soon. And tomorrow, whether he wants to or not, the king is going to school.

Brooke Hauser is the former Editor-in-Chief of the Daily Hampshire Gazette newspaper in Northampton, Massachusetts. She is also the author of two books: Enter Helen: The Invention of Helen Gurley Brown and the Rise of the Modern Single Woman, winner of the National Arts and Entertainment Journalism Award for Best Nonfiction Book, and The New Kids: Big Dreams and Brave Journeys at a High School for Immigrant Teens, a winner of the American Library Association’s Alex Award.

A longtime journalist, Hauser has written for Allure, Marie Claire, The New York Times, and The New Yorker online, among other publications. For several years, she covered the film industry as a writer and editor at Premiere. Originally from Miami, Florida, Hauser lives with her family in western Massachusetts. She currently teaches nonfiction writing at Smith College. (Photo by Jo Chattman)

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